I wonder why god is so cruel to me? He takes everything from me. The one i loved. Why? Why can't i be like everybody? Being happy everyday. I struggled everyday. Each passing moment i felt terrible, everything is going away from me. Even myself. I feel myself so useless. I can't even do a thing properly, which is forget about you. I don't know you still knows me or already forgetten about me. On the 8th May, you opened up my heart. I feel overjoyed than ever before.

I promised to god i will stay with you whole heartedly but now? Is this an sad parting? I don't want these to happen at all.

Why always all these things happen to me only, why am i the one always suffering in the pain quietly and no one else knows. This is not the 1st time time. I have been hurt this 1st time and this was the 2nd time. God, how long more do you want me to be hurt? Forever?


Agrh! What has become of me? A guy who have lost everything? Every day i stayed away from my home, i am tired of this needless beatings and scolding. What more do you want from me? I am already very tired. I just want to have a place where there is peace. I am not your punching bag. What more i could do? End my life?


God, please save me..