Firstly, Happy birthday to me. Hahaha 17 years old. Time flies isn't it? Very soon i will be taking Olevel le.. DAMM scared..!

Well, I had lots of problems during these few days. I had mixed feelings in my heart. I also made a choice that will change my entire life and i feel kinda regretful now.. As my friends said, Life moves on right? Well, this words may be true, but i need times to overcome.

Hahha. Birthday to me is always lonely one. I have been enduring these toturous event of my life. But i used to it le. Everytime i feel quite envy that my siblings always could have party in my house to celebrate his birthday and i will be hiding inside the room studying or sleeping.. Is okay jiajie, Tell yourself next year will be better. Cause i can go learn driving le :P

No matter what happen, Stay Cheerful and Happy :D





I will wait and wait. It's my fault cause i made the wrong decision and now this is my retribution

I really don't know what to do... The same old feeling struck me again..

I always told myself, try to stay happy no matter what happen. When you are happy, people around you will also be happy. I always put on a front act in from of the other showing people i am always very hyper and happy. In reality, i am a lonely person. Reach home facing the four corners of room, talking to myself. I really hate this.. I really want to be real Jiajie that i can always jump about and making fool of myself but where has he gone to? Somewhere or disappear forever?

When was the last time i talk to you face to face? I really miss you.. but I don't dare to say it to you.. I always cherish you, making you my first priority in my life. I don't know whether you will see this but, i really miss you... 带我会到最除的圆点，最单纯和最美那一天。


I cant stop thinking about you.. Always be my baby




Ice Cream

Verse 1
You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

Verse 2
You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away

Chorus
Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

Verse 3
The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won't forget

And now, whos to say, well be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause were the same
And I know that we'll never change
Look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don't want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don't know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me

Miracles do happen.

Social studies Prelim is just over. Well, I screw it up. HAHAH. I lost all my motivation to study well. Many teachers came to ask me what happen today.. I really don't know what to reply. I really hope miracles will happen.. Maybe someday or even won't happen.


What can i do now? Many people say i'm foolish to wait for you. I just hope that you will come back...

Prelims had just started today, I screwed up my whole exam..

What do you except from a dying person, everyday i had to take 5 different types of medicine to control it. I had more white blood cells than red blood cells inside my body resulting me having a fever last Saturday.

I am trying to control my tears but they just keep flowing down from my eyes as i am typing. I finally realised one thing. Everyone dies, it not a big deal but it difficult to part away to one you love. God, if you want to take me away from this world, please at least let me celebrate my birthday? I really feel very lost now, who can i turn to for help? Family? Friends? or my Love ones? I think no one care for me at all. I have to bear all this myself. If can, when i'm gone, forget about this guy.

Fever have strucked me again.. accompained by several vomits, I think my time is really up.


From this moment, I really need you. I know this will be impossible. I only can pray earnestly for miracles to happen.






Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I cant fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, cant stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

Its a quarter after one, Im a little drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Yes Id rather hurt than feel nothing at all.
Its a quarter after one, Im all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldnt call but Im a little drunk and I need you now.
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

Yea. Many people should be happy cause i got nothing now. I swear i going to a quiet person and dont talk anymore. Continue to laugh at me ba. I deserved it.

It's been a long time that i update my blog. So i think this will be a long one..

I once told myself, "Is Life a fair one?" This question had been lingering in my mind for a long time. I compared my life to the others and i feel that many people are so fortunate then me. Actually, i am quite envy about it. I tried my best in every aspect in my life, it does not favour me at all. I really envy those people that could play soccer that well. They got the skills and the speed, which makes them less easy to get hurt. I tried very hard to achieve that, but it failed. Furthermore, i got hurt at the end of the day. Why can i work hard for it and achieve it? No matter, how hard i tried, in the end i still fail in every aspect in my life.

Well, i nearly fainted as one the player accidentally kick the soccer ball and hit it directly on my face. I knew that this was a accident. My eyes is swollen, perhaps after a few days, blue-black will start to form around my eyes. I fell down lots and lots of time, my knee is bleeding profusely now and hand was also being sprain again =X

3.20am. I'm feeling super uncomfortable and ill now. What should i do? Give up in whatever things that i love to do or Strive hard for a better tomorrow? Hais..



Without you, i could not do anything right at all. IMY so badly that i want to hug you tightly and say ILY forever and ever.


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