Day 2, Mood: Sad.

It's been a really a tough day for me. Today i went Queenstown Shopping Centre with Gabe, Kiong, Justin and Shaun. I can say it's really fun day for us. During the bus journey, I kept thinking of you.. I want to talk to you but i don't dare.


Soccer at night, Super duper lots of mistakes. I want to play as well as you guys. I really do.. I don't want to a burden to all of you. I also want to be a great goalkeeper like the others. Jiayous JIAJIE. I believe practice makes perfect. Maybe i practice more. I will become better. I want to be the one helping all of you to score.

Tomorrow gym and hopefully a job interview. Have to sleep early :/



You are the reason that made me smile

Hmmm. It's been sooooo long since i stop blogging. From now on, i shall make myself a personal diary. My blog shall be mine personal diary :)

Day 1, Mood: Emotional.

It's been two months since i last blogged. Olevels results was out. L1R4 - 15 :))) Very very happy that i was one of the top student in Bedok North Sec. Didn't expect i was the chosen one ^^

I was posted to TP's Business Studies Group. Maybe around april, school will offically start :)


Sometimes, i always asked myself. Am i really facing the reality? Tell you the truth, i have feelings for a girl. I just dunno. When i was talking with you, i am so happy. When i'm not, i feel so lost.. Is that what type called LOVE? I really want to express my thoughts, but i thought she maybe have someone in her mind. I guess. So i didn't. I don't think she will see this.

Diary, What should i do? What can i do? I really feel very lost. I want to runaway. Forgetting everything. Maybe she's happy then i'm contented...

Today I caught myself smiling for no reason... then I realized I was thinking about you.

I don't care the reason. One thing i know, i need to hate you in order to forget you. Cause i really can't forget about you.. Every single thing about you is always on my mind. I'm sorry. That's the only way for me. If you think this is my fault, Sorry. Blame me.

It's like so fast.. 2011 has come. Many things has happen especially things around me. During the year 2010, I told myself olevel is just 9months away from January only and SHOO, Olevel has ended, releasal of Olevel result is on next Monday perharps. DIE x.x I told myself to be strong in the year 2011. I simply can't do it. Today I tried control my emotion and not let my emotion get the best of me. I also told myself I am not weak anymore. I am already grown up. I choose not to cry in the presence of my friends. In the end, I did cried infront ChinBoon and Teckwee. They asked me not to bottle things up, just cry it all out. You will feel much better.. Thanks to both of you. I don't know what to say except saying thank you.

I know you have already forgotten about me. But I didn't. You ask say forever, where is the forever? 世界上没有天长地久,只有曾经拥有. You always not there for me. You can find lots of excuses to cover for yourself. I bet you are thinking I am talking bad about you. But I am not. You might be saying 'whatever laa. Who cares' This means one thing, you don't even care for me. I just don't want to bottle up it in my heart anymore. Everytime I think back to the past, it's just hurt. Every of your words just hurts me. Now you say you love one boy and just leave me alone, you don't think it's too cruel for me? A idoit who is willing to do anything for you and in the end I get this punishment. I just wrote what I have bottled this feeling for a very long time. I bear no grudges, and this has nothing to do with you. I guess I am fine now.

Jiayous jiajie. Look forward, don't think of the past anymore, it's history already

I will continue to be the RANDOM I usually do and stay happy! :D

2011 is coming and 2010 is ending :( Let's look forward. Tell yourself 2011 will be better than 2010. During this year 2010, I learnt many things. Class bonding, friends bonding. This year is the most happy year and also the year that made me heartbroken. I learnt that we can achieve anything if we put our soul together as a class. In the end, we achieved 1st Runner Up for Inter Class Competition! :D

I know that friends are impt too! I love my precious friends and i bet they love me too! :D I will cherish my friend, i will not let the same mistake happen twice again.

I think i am too naggy, let the pictures say!